Somewhere 'beyond' the lines

Sometimes, we choose for ourselves the worst there is! but that's the beauty in truly loving someone ! to fall in heart with the someone you expect its never gonna work out. Just the way it didn't ! Just another misadventure .

been there yet ? Maybe its something we've all been through or I have a soft corner for people who made my life miserable ! I am a sucker for tragedy.

For now I'll just skip to the part when I started to address this feeling which had been peeping by the window since the time ,we'd met

Its been really hard  to reignite my passion for someone in a way I hold dear to me,its a harsh world out there.I had locked myself within the walls of loneliness for almost 2 years. By this time I just couldn't help but find myself lost within those eyes which I have now lost forever.

'Remember the awfully lit smile on your face,which do not used to sweep off even when mom was yelling ! Or the constant conversations which seemed would never end until you just couldn't keep awake! When you make past the hesitation to say stuff you'd rather feel shy to, & you choose not to acknowledge the possibilities of events going out of order.' Sometimes,things take a turn for the good & you are sensible enough to live in the moment! without burdening yourselves in tension weaved with expectations.

But about time, destiny is going to smack you right in the face! "when you're least expecting".

I have observed people closely at their times of despair,apparently they were blinded by love. I have always drifted towards people who are going through a heartbreak, & needed someone to listen to their stories. But the fact that I let my feelings vulnerable to them did make me end up loosing potential once this phase was over. I solely served the purpose of a tissue paper, and quite frankly I never wished more, I mean what else do you need , to know a person ... to seek intimacy, not physical but the kind of things you go through with them for that short period teaches you a lot about yourselves . But of course, once they don't need a shoulder to cry on.. its time for you to move out!

Growing up in my teenage it felt kind of strange to make peace with this feeling of abandonment... But I liked it ,its not at all like one sided love or being the third wheel in a relationship.Rather,I am the one who gets access to her notion of love with intricacies unseen between lovers. How amazing is that to experience something that you rarely possess?,'a heartbreak without taking the leap of faith !'

But this all fantasy land that people have been to,was something I looked as shear misjudgment of instincts ! & as much as I tried to bind myself within the walls of reasoning it went on becoming harder till I confronted you...